A word can set in motion history faster then a sword can carve stone...

Its frightening how people can do one thing on one hand, and yet do a completely different scheme on the other...

sigh..

school has been taking its toll on me recently... the late nights spent researching, the drafts and redrafts that I have to do for just one small portion of the project...

its quite madness...



i miss dominic

dreams are... for dreaming... but why should I close my eyes when I know that you're already mine?... I love ya.. truly, deeply, madly... - Andrew 

i don't wanna get old...

really.. cross my heart.. I want to stay at 18 forever...

I hate it everytime I think that my last year as a teenager is anytime on its way..

jeez!!

sigh...


crapz..


anywayz,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SONIA! =)

Reading through my past entries, I suddenly realized that my writing style has changed alot...

In fact, so many things about me has changes so much... Until people who have not seen me for 3 years ago cannot recognize me anymore.

My voice has changed
My looks has changed - alot.
My character has changed

and, even my thinking has changed...

But deep down inside, I'm still the same Andrew who was your friend and still is...


I.. think I've been rather mean towards Dominic lately...
I feel really really very bad, and somehow, sorry doesnt seem to be sufficient to justify what I've been doing...
I really wish I could just hold him close for a long time...

He's always smiling and cheerful and the like, and somehow I'm like the opposite...
Quiet, reserved and somewhat gloomy as compared to him...

I love him for who he is...
I still love him as much as I had on the first time I met him... maybe more even..

Our 5th anniversary has just passed not too long ago...

5 months is like eons in terms of an AJ relationship....

But whoever said time was of any consequence?

I love Dominic.


*hugs*

Announcement

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

To : Everybody who knows Victor

Its Victor's 21st birthday!! Its a really really REALLY important day for him, as it means that he can do loads of illegal stuff that he would not be able to do under 21 (i.e. Watching "R21" Movies, going to 80% more clubs and pubs in Singapore, can elope.. etc)

Thus! He would like to celebrate such a momentous occasion with you!! You are invited to his birthday party!!
6 bowling lanes will be book in private for this occassion for 4 hours, and a small bowling competition will be held! The winners will get prizes of course!
Lots of scrumptious food will be in line! From renowned caterers and of course, my mum's famous cooking!

WARNING : Do not miss this occassion! You'd be missing out on ALOT of stuffs, no joke...

Ermz, presents are not required, no money is required. The only must is your-self to be present...

Do drop me a msg if you're coiming at : 90701757
or an email at : Axton_Z@hotmail.com

Victor himself will meet you all at Bukit Batok MRT Station at 1:15 pm this Saturday, 22 April.
For those that are coming directly to the party, the event will be held at Bukit Batok Civil Service Club.
Drop me or Victor a line once you reached if you need further directions!



pls pls come ok?

Peepz! I'm still waiting for you all to fill up my Johari Window!!

ANDREW'S JOHARI WINDOW

heez.. pls do pls do!

To The Difference

Here's to the kids who are different,
The kids who don't always get A's.
The kids who have ears twice the size of their peers,
And noses that go on for days.

Here's to the kids who are different,
The kids they call crazy and dumb.
The kids who aren't cute and don't give a hoot,
Who dance to a different drum.

Here's to the kids who are different,
The kids with the mischievous streak.
For when they have grown,
As history's shown,
It's their difference that makes them unique.

Digby Wolfe

End-Holiday Irritance

HOLIDAYS ARE OVER!!
HOLIDAYS ARE OVER!!

*groans*

holidays.. are... over............

*sobz*

1 month passed by in a flash!

shit. Darn irritated... I havn't even completed what I wanted to do finish yet... jeez..........

Quote Taken from "The Da Vinci Cock" by Laura Miller :

"Fortunately for Brown, as the book has filtered into the awareness of people who are qualified to refute most of its claims, he's always been able to plead fiction; "The Da Vinci Code" is, after all, only a novel. Although he begins the book with a statement that it accurately describes real documents, and that the Priory of Sion really does exist, even this leaves him with plenty of wiggle room. The book's selling point is the impression that it contains large and provocative servings of historical fact; yet when challenged on the many fallacies in his novel, Brown can always assert that, as a work of fiction, "The Da Vinci Code" can't be held to any standard of accuracy."


haha.. isnt that true...

To me, Dan Brown is just a person with a passion for lying... and since he can't lie openly, which would insult his intelligence as well as create a case for slander, he chose to hide in fiction and pinch stupid people's brains.

Bad Publicity!

Hmm.. Dumb drives for publicity has to end!!

okok... Here's one stupid company that bullied my fren! *grins* To help her take a bit of revenge, I'm going to spread some bad publicity!! woohoo!!

Authors Note : The people, events and materials in this entry are completely real, non-fictional, and it truly happened - and I've just reiterated 3 times that this is a true event.

Excerpt taken from my friends blog :

It happened during one fateful assembly period. The spokepersons of some skincare product, Cow & Chicken" (the name of the product must be changed or I may be sued for slander by those manupilative freaks) said they wanted to play a game. So they wanted volunteers with oily skin to go up. YES read my lips O-I-L-Y skin. Like hello! Which idiot in the right mind would go up on their own accord...and then the register numbers were called.

Cow and chicken, "Class 2I, register number 7."
Number 7, "No way."
Cow and Chicken, "Register number 7."
Calvin Tay, "haha. so suay. Faster go up la."
the rest of the human beings alive, "hahahahaha...number 7!"

After a spilt second, number 7 finally muster enough courage to face the "chicken" crew. The victims were handed each a piece of low quality oil absorbent films. They were told, to their horror, that they had to collect the oil on their faces in front of the whole sec two cohort which is akin to ...3OO PEOPLE=600 EYES!
grr.
It was just plain humiliating. The "chicken" spokeperson even said that the "winner", the person with the most oil, will win a prize...
=.=" Number 7 heard the guy beside her say he would rather not win... but guess who won?
poor guy.

Number 7 was not too bad.
She got the "third oiliest skin" award.
A packet of "Cow and Chicken" oil absorbent films. woohoo. rejoice.

***

end of bad publicity!! wahaha...
Sorry if I took from your blog w/o asking you first ya... It occured to me that you'd like somebody to stab this badasses in the buttcheek... so why don't you let me ya? haha..

I can't stand cosmetic companies who'd do such stuffs......
believe me, it actually happens quite often...

hmm...


oh yah! To those peepz that wanted to see the rest of the pictures, its on my flickr site!!

LUNCH!! Sakae Sushi @ Sentosa 

ohm.. ohm...... @#*@_(#*_!@# muahaha, I wish I could become super smart, super handsome and super talented!! =D 

actually dominic likes to take pictures more then me... =P 

uncle! take me to chinatown!...  

Images of Singapore next!! =D We've become coolies 

Haha... I just love this picture.. Super cute.... 

Beautiful butterflies xD Actually I hate insects, but some butterflies are just so beautiful..... 

Evolution of human beings.... from Elephants, to apes to caveman and finally... DOMINIC!! =D 

So muahhaha... we're at the butterfly park!! Butterfly power! I'm the king of butterflies!! wahaha 

After we got tired of camara-whoring at underwater world, we got aboard a green color bus and set on the open roof!! ~ phew. .. hot 

OOH! this is the picture i took specially for Grace!! xD hey! Grace!! 

The shark is trying to bite Dominic's head... and he doesnt seem to care... lol... Well, guess its enough to have me =D 

Dominic!!!! 

This is a tiny bug-like fish that became.....  

Crab! Its quite huge actually, but my hands seem to make it look small.. =P 

Seaweed Seahorse!! It looked quite cute, so we took it... xD 

Help! The crab is eating Dominic up!! =X wahaha... yum 

So we started out at... Guess where? wahaha... UNDERWATER WORLD!!! I havnt been inside for like 10 years?? Though nothing much has changed, its still as fascinating as ever... Btw.. thats a huge japanese spider crab =D 

Today is an ultra great day!! Guess where I went?? Lolz... Dominic and me only! haha... He had free entry to almost everywhere in Sentosa thanks to a special card that he got from working at the zoo 

HAHA!! Ezekiel didi likes Leonard.

wahaha... =P

okie. Updated!

Friends - Forever.

Being born in a Christian family always made me wonder about a few things,

such as :

- What would I be like if I were a non-christian?

basically, if you people know my past, I've been through countless of stuffs that many people take years to experience and some, things that people will never want to experience...

the lessons I learnt and regrets on the way were inevitable...

but through it all, I realize something, that friends come and go, but the marks they leave on my life is undeniable...


My Best Friends (as what I regard them as)

Simon (??? - ???)
Haryanto (p5 - ???)
Alvin (??? - polyr 1)
Timothy (polyr 1 - ???)
Samuel (??? - sec 3)
Sandra Leong (??? - sec 1)
Samantha (p1 - p3)
Huang Zifu (p3 - p4)
Desmond Chin (p5 - p6)
Seng Kiat (p5-p6)
LiPeng (p5 - p6)
Fraser Leow (sec 1 - sec 4)
Michelle Lee (sec 2 - sec 4)
Duras (sec 1 - sec 3)
Chong Loon (sec 3 - sec 4)

DMC 1A02 - 3B02
SMC Agape Youth

Note : ??? refers to a date which I cannot pintpoint as the beginning of the friendship. Possibly occured even before I lost my memory.

My Extended Family ( sorry if I missed out a few, its so hard to keep track since poly started)

Nicholas didi
Ezekiel didi
Bluee didi
Chris didi
Willy didi
Hiro didi
Elwin didi
James didi
Jeff didi
Terence didi
Exoduser didi
Xavier didi
Thomas-Jovian didi * ( by right he should be my kor)

Ah bang (machiam grandfather already lor!)
Calvin kor
Alex kor
Phoenyx kor
Wolfy kor
Ah Zhen (kor)
Jasper kor
Kelly jie *(by right he should be my kor)
Annavine jie *(by right he should be my kor)
Victoria jie *(by right he should be my kor)

Xiao Wei mei
Lishan mei
Eldrin mei
Joanna mei

Kerrine jie
Corrine jie
Angel jie
Becky jie
Chloe jie
Kat jie
Joan kor (by right she should be my jie)
Max kor (by right she should be my jie)
Jovin kor (by right she should be my jie)


in addition to people that will always be close to my heart, someway or another :

Samuel (2000- 2002)
Zhi Jun (2004)
Jackie (2003)
Xiao Long (2003)

Dominic.

inpact? everybody has impacted me in someway or another... these are just some people who have impacted my life on a larger scale then others...

when we leave footprints in the lives of others, will it be a memorable one? will it be a good one? will it be a painful one?

the final decision is up to us - most of the time.


Every name that I have written above have made a permernant mark in my life, mostly for the better, I love each one of them, and some with special care even...

Each and everyone has a place in my heart =)


*hugs*
be my bookmark, don't ever let this chapter end.

Sakenomo Itsumane...?

What on earth do you do to make somebody recover from a relationship crisis?

The guy dumps the girl.
The girl can't take it.
The girl hallucinates.

The guy couldn't be bothered.
The girl cries.
The girl goes into depression.

The guy couldn't care.

I feel responsible for it, partly. Because she liked me initially. I rejected her, and her contained feelings had to be magnetized to another person.

Unfortunately, like what I told her, the first can never last.
The first will NEVER last.

In my entire life, I have hardly seen any relationships that are both the first for both parties as well as still lasting strong.

But no.
She still HAS to hallucinate that there is still a hope to salvage the situation.
She still HAS to dream of him every night.
She still HAS to cry and keep the pain within her every day.

She hardly eats.
She suffers from mood swings.
She perpetually wants contact with people.

This is symptoms of depression!
But of course, she refuses to admit it.

Then what can I do?

I had to confront her with the harsh realities of the situation, in sharp strong words - in a bid to make her snap out of it.

She cried.

And now half the world is asking why I made her cry.

THIS IS THE ANSWER. HAPPY?


My personal code is that I do not treat girls with a status that is above guys.
When I have to say something, I do not coat it with honey and sugar. I come directly to your face.
I am not a gentleman. And I do not intend to be one.

I believe in the rights of women of course. However, if they wish to share equal opportunities as guys, don't expect people to hold the door for you, pay for your meals or such.


If I made you cry, I'm sorry - the same way I would apologize to a guy if I made him cry.

But dont expect me to groval at your feet or feel guilty about anything I did.

- because I did it for your own good. And you had to tell the world that I made you cry.

haha... click on that comic to see what it is about... Simon's comic skills are hilariously good.... =D - copyright (c) April 2006 Simon http://www.freewebs.com/silentlurker 

Christian Music vs Secular Music

I'm starting to blog so little nowadays... Its starting to really scare me...

Recently, I've been given a wake up call twice in a period of one week... God spoke to me from different sources on something that has been troubling me for some time...

People always wonder what classification of music "Christian" falls into... Its really confusing because the range of music within that "genre" is audibly very vast...

For example :
"Hillsongs - Still", would be a typical example of a contemporary pop music with basic chordal progressions and emphasis on climate. Classic examples of secular pop music would be Mariah Carey's - "When You Believe" etc.

"United Live - The Time Has Come", would be a typical example of a modern rock, with advance chordal progression and style of playing, with more emphasis on the music. Classic examples of modern rock would be Simple Plan - "Welcome to my Life" etc.

"Hymns (like) - Be Thou my Vision", would be typical example of opratic music, with very very simple chord progressions played in alot of variations, with more emphasis on the vocals. Classic exmples would be - "Josh Groban - You Raised Me Up"

Apart from these 3 more common genres of music, "Christian Music" fills a large scope of other music genres as well...
White Cross, based in the US is an example of a Christian Band which plays Metal Music
Deeper, based in the UK is an example of a Christian Band which plays Techno Music
Praises from the Living Water (direct trans. from Chinese), based in Hong Kong *i think* is an example of a Christian Band which plays Chinese Music.


So. Why do people use the term "Christian Music", why do Christian use the term "Christian Music", even though they know the vast variety of music it encompasses?

Basically, because the fundamental reason is the motive behind playing the music.
Secular Music is played mainly for self-appraisal or for spreading a secular-based message.
Christian Music is played solely for the glory of God AND for spreading hope-based messages.

People call it Christian Music because they KNOW the difference in the music, the FEEL the difference in the music and they can SEE the difference in the attitude of the band.

Simply put, the Holy Spirit works within these music.
Like the complete opposite of satanic music, which glorifies self, and of course, satan causes changes in people to become "introvert, self-enclosing, bad tempered and fearful of death", Christian music causes changes in people, through the Holy Spirit to become "closer with people, tolerent, and assured of the promise of being with God forever."

While Satan backstabs people through his music, not presenting himself first but pretend to glorify the individual before inputting and forcing backmasked thoughts into its victims head.

God works directly, glorifying Himself first, and from there, touch the hearts of people who will accept and invite Jesus to live within themself.


People. In a spiritual war, physical weapons can do nothing.
In a war with secular music to evangelize to a non-believer's heart, physical technicalities can do nothing.
Christian music is 90% spirit filled, 5% technicality and 5% emotion.

If a Christian band fails to recognize the above, they have failed completely.


- written by Andrew (c) 5/4/2006

-U2-
"Sometimes You Can't Make It On Your Own"

Tough, you think you've got the stuff
You're telling me and anyone
You're hard enough

You don't have to put up a fight
You don't have to always be right
Let me take some of the punches
For you tonight

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

We fight all the time
You and I...that's alright
We're the same soul
I don't need...I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more

Listen to me now
I need to let you know
You don't have to go it alone

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you when I don't pick up the phone
Sometimes you can't make it on your own

I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can - you - hear - me - when - I -
Sing, you're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me...

Where are we now?
I've still got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
Don't leave me here alone...

And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own